Wednesday, April 29, 2009

INDEPENDENT WOMAN!

Last nite, I’d spent my time lavishly reading the blog of LO

.She’s totally hot, strong and admirable

. I love the way she thinks about life, of how everything that come across the way should be handled coolly and maturely. Since I am too, struggling with the considered petty2 things in life by some people, which is the emotional struggle

, I am very2 positive

of how things should work after reading some inspiring stories in the LO’S Blog. Thanx sis~ U inspired me to be strong, yet remained the characteristic of a soft lady. I think that everyone has come upon difficult time, when they have to bear on frustration, betrayal

, etc. Somehow, I realized that I should take thing very slowly, I’m only 21 by the way, my journey is still too long. Once I regretted for the certain things that I’d done, somehow I realized that mistakes make me grow independently

as the mistakes taught me many things. I don’t want to be the victim of desperation

of possessing someone or something in life, until I have to put my dignity

aside or even have to shatter it. In my contemplation of my emotional struggle, I believe that true love will come to me eventually when the right time has come. I appreciate

what I have now, thank you Allah for lending me someone that I can rely on, someone that can lend me his shoulder

when I need to, someone that can guide

me when I’m lost. I know that sometimes thing can be difficult for both of us, however I am truly grateful for the mutual trust

and tolerance

we have in each other. I pray that God will bless this relationship till eternity

, and wash away the time of uncertainty. My dear melon, thanx for bearing my emotional whinge

, I know sometimes I stepped beyond the line. Being independent is what I want, but I know sometimes I can’t help but to grumble my emotional expression to u. I want to achieve everything I dream of

, slowly but nicely. I am giving myself a space to breathe now, since I think that I’d suffocated myself with not very-brilliant-perspective for a period of time. I always remind myself, never put myself down juz because i don’t get what i want. I can always try later, harder maybe. Yeah! Independent woman works

towards her dream

without stopping, not even a second! Go Go Sheryl!,

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Hari-Hari Terakhir di IPSAH—Kisah Bertemu Sang Cinta!

Harini adalah officially hari examku yang amat2 lah stress. On the way nk g exam hall. Terdengarlah kawan2 aku dok me”recite” falsafah pendidikan negare. Hebatnye kawan2 aku. Xsangke semue orang da pandai berfalsafah sekarang. Hehe.Pagi tadi bwat falsafah, nak jammed gak la kepale since aku ni mmglah xreti berfalsafah hendaknye. Awal2 pagi lagi da tension, bukan sbb xleh jwb soalan, tapi sbb invigilator tu dok borak2 baek nye depan aku. Mane nak dapat idea nak menulis kalo mcm2? Da la aku da lame xtulis essay dlm bm. Pastu kene tulis pasal falsafah plak tu (chewwaahh..aku nih sbnrnye exaggerate je ni..orang laen pon kene gak wat falsafah!).Tape seyes r, mmg aku bengang sangat2 lah mase invigilator tu dok borak2. Da la kuat gile, aku dengar la dorang dok ckp2 pasal paper falsafah yg dorang kate senang mcm kopek kacang tu. A ah la senang. Sbb dorang xkene bwat. Cube dorang kene wat. Mesti dorang pon terkial2 gak r. Malang btol la aku duk depan betol2 depan pintu masuk. Aish. Xbaik btol mulut aku ni.
Pastu tengahari lak ade classroom management. Sir ckp soalan senang. Kalo tengok soalan mesti gelak. A ahla sangat. Gile banyak essay kene bwat. Pastu tghari2 nih, mood nak lena bak kate orang2 perlis nak datang r. aku da letak kepale atas meje, kelas plak panas. Aku pon pelik r kolej aku ni, tah kurun keberapenye kipas ta die gune. Aku da bukak kipas paling maksimum pon mcm bukak no2 je kot. Ika da bising2 kat hujung kelas, “shel, bole tolong kuatkan kipas x?”. aku pon jawap “la, da paling kuatlah..kipas ni kembaq kipas bilik hang la”. Hehehe.macam2 hal.(tiru ayat abg long lah plak!). Sbb brain aku yang da macam cramp sbb ngantok, serius aku xsempat check. Tah apelah aku jwb td. Mintak2 lah xde yg tersasar.
Pastu abes paper cm je teros yan ajak g mkn. Sekutu2 makan yg len pon join skali r. lalu lah plak kat tempat kitorang jumpe “sang cinta” semalam. Since Konvo da dekat, makin rajinlah gardener2 kat Ipsah ni. Jangan maen2 tau. Uncle Library pon da tuka profesion jadi tukang potong rambut pokok tau. Die gunting pokok lawa gile. Semalam aku ngan bella da aim satu pokok uncle library ni tgh dok potong. Die potong lawa gile, siap ade lubang yang bole letak muke kitorang lah antare pokok2 tu. Tp semalam sbb hujan n malas nk tgu uncle library tu siap potong pokok tu, xdapatlah nak amek gamba. So on the way balik pas riangkan perut kat depan restaurant2 ekslusif depan ipsah tu, teingin la nk teruskan hajat semalam. Malangnye uncle library tu tgh dok potong lagi pokok tu. Aku pon pelik. Macam uncle tu ptong pokok tu xsiap2 dari semalam. Aku tengok pokok tu da xcomel, da xde bentuk bulat untuk aku dgn bella letak muke kat tgh2 poko tu, tp da jd mcm kambingnye sh*t.adoi! frust2!
Pastu pg la tempat bertemu sang cinta tu. Ala. Kaler sang cinta da berubah. Da xmerah da. Adekah sang cinta da berubah hati? Tp sbb kemaruk nak bergambar jugak, atas dasar arini semue orang comel berbaju kurung, amek gak lah gamba. Posing maseh mcm semalam. Cume bezenye arini ana wat pose gedik telebey.hahaha.die kate sbb nk cover jerawat yg naik kat pipi. Ala mek, aku pon naik jerawat, besar plak tu, xpelah. Anggap jelah ni sagu hati dr exam last kat ipsah sblm masuk upsi.hehe… lupe lak nak cerite kisah bertemu sang cinte ni. Semalam kan semue orang pon tension study. Aku pon biaselah, jiwe kacau, g mkn cha kuey teow kat restaurant ekslusif kat depan maktab. Pas2 time balik hujan, kenelah lalu bawah tempat beratap depan hall tu. Skali tgh menikmati pemandangan2 yang baru nk dibersihkan sempene konvo, nampaklah plak sumthing kale merah dalam pasu kat tepi2 tu. Lawa gile. Rerupenye bende tu buah pinang yg tengah masak kale merah. Tah sape tah susun jadik bentuk heart. Aku, belle, aida ngan ana pon mule la ade syndrome nak bergamba. Pas2 sorang2 amek gamba. Posing same plak tu.hahaha sbb smlm kitorng pakai t-shirt je, so arini konon2 comel sket r pakai baju kurung nk amak gbr lg dgn sang cinta. Sbb sume org pon tgh mcm frust bercinte, sume pon setuju lah nk panggil bende lah tu “sang cinte”. Ha comel lah tu! Jangan jeles semue! Hari2 terakhir kami telah betemu sang cinte! Hahaha~ elok nye panjang essay aku ni. Bole x essay ni je aku submit esok sempene paper bm? =p


arini pakai baju kurung plak...tp color sang cinte da xmerah sangat..


semalam pakai t-shirt..


hai sang cinta!

Monday, April 6, 2009

curious-------

Cloudy cloudy day. It is so strange not to hear your voice for even one day. It is very strange.
Sometimes, curiosity does not only kill the rats, but it is also killing me. That’s it.

“Dear wind, fly me where I can find my amity. I don’t’ want to freeze under the rain. Let me chill myself on the clouds, playing with the son of the sun. I know that rainbow awaits me when the rain stops. “ 
--pinkblusher—

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Clarification~

omg! my blog has create some sort of controversy recently. ok. let me clarify this.
what i've written inside my blog has nothing to do with ANYONE. it just that i wrote what i think generally and i have no slight intention of pointing it to anybody. i apology if any thing written here offend u. i'm sorry, but i must stress here that i am not pointing any of my writing to anyone. i believe that everybody has the right to express thought freely right? so, here i am writing my thought for STRANGERS to read. my blog is the place where i laugh and scream. please, if u cannot accept what i'm writing, then do not proceed reading it. I am only human, n i cannot pleased everyone. by the way, thanx for reading my thoughts here. i appreciate it. :)

Friday, April 3, 2009

Open Your Mind...Please?

"no one worth to judge u" i begin my today's entry with one of my favourite quotes. in life, i am sure everybody will come across with betrayal, hatred, envy and other negative feelings. it doesn't matter. it just a normal feeling that everybody will feel at least once in life. i bet u never feel it only ONCE. to be honest, sometimes i envy other people for their beauty, brain n etc. even if i feel envy or jealous of someone, it never crossed my mind to hurt other people by making bad stories up just to see the downfall of that certain people. Sometimes, i feel frustrated because some people are overreacting on some issues. yes. maybe that someone had once made a big mistake. but i still cannot understand why should this has-nothing-to-do with that problem must judge the once-made-a-mistake individual until she/he makes a totally wrong conclusion. aren't friends supposed to be supportive and understanding? so why should the incident of spreading bad stories about others, make other people hate certain individual happens? come on guys. we are all adults. i am sure that we are matured and not blind to see what is really happening. please don't act like 7-year-old child whenever u have with problem with certain individual, u tell others not to be friend with that certain individual. the problem lies between only u and that individual(or maybe sometime it has nothing to do with u, u are just overreacting or too busy body by thinking it IS your PROBLEM!), so don't u ever drag other people in. in fact, i am not into making enemies, i love friends, i don't hurt my friends, i appreciate my friends and i hope that this kind of thing will fade away. do remember, "hari ini anda mungkin mentertawakan kejatuhan orang lain, tetapi siapa tahu, mungkin esok giliran anda pula untuk merasai kejatuhan".

"Value someone with your heart, not with your mouth".

---pinkblusher----

for my honey...

hi. honey, u know now that i have a blog. sorry honey, i don't mean to hide anything from u. it just that i feel shy. i know that we've been together for amazingly 4 years, but still i am too shy whenever it comes to u. maybe because your charming charming giggle whenever u want to tease me catch my nerves. honey, u means everything to me. as promised, nah, i proudly want to show my honey off. thanx honey, for your never-ending commitment, i know u are busy, but still u steal your precious2 time for me. i LOVE you.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

oh lizard!

crime scene is the phrase i can describe about my room! no no i didnt
commited any serious crime such as robbing or killing. it juz that
a small creature called lizard was found trying to do away or in
simpler term "to commit suicide" in my lovely room. oh dear lizard---i wondered y should u choose my lovely n "penuh cahaye keimanan" room to commit the sin of suicide.c'mon lizard, u dun have to kill yourself even if your heart was
broken just because your girlfriend lizard dump u since u cannot afford to buy
a sport car or maybe because your long-time lovers girlfriend lizard
was caught cheating with other "h-e-n-s-e-m" lizard. i believe one day
u will find another pretty n hot lady lizard. ok..enough for my speech dedicated
to the lizard who is still dying on ex-roommate's bed(he got sticked to the glue of a tape, so he cannot move around). i pity you young lizard, however, i can do
nothing more than watching u dying. i feel yucks to touch u,by the way, i even screamed to death when i first discovered your yellowish body
lying desperately on the bed. i'm sorry, i'm gonna seek help from
the makcik cleaner to eliminate u from my room tomorrow. please dun beg me..
i am sorry..i have too. goodbye forever heart-broken lizard~~