suddenly a strange feeling pop out again.
"i envy the ones who get a beautiful attention.
Last nite, I’d spent my time lavishly reading the blog of LO
.She’s totally hot, strong and admirable. I love the way she thinks about life, of how everything that come across the way should be handled coolly and maturely. Since I am too, struggling with the considered petty2 things in life by some people, which is the emotional struggle, I am very2 positive of how things should work after reading some inspiring stories in the LO’S Blog. Thanx sis~ U inspired me to be strong, yet remained the characteristic of a soft lady. I think that everyone has come upon difficult time, when they have to bear on frustration, betrayal , etc. Somehow, I realized that I should take thing very slowly, I’m only 21 by the way, my journey is still too long. Once I regretted for the certain things that I’d done, somehow I realized that mistakes make me grow independently as the mistakes taught me many things. I don’t want to be the victim of desperation of possessing someone or something in life, until I have to put my dignity aside or even have to shatter it. In my contemplation of my emotional struggle, I believe that true love will come to me eventually when the right time has come. I appreciate what I have now, thank you Allah for lending me someone that I can rely on, someone that can lend me his shoulder when I need to, someone that can guide me when I’m lost. I know that sometimes thing can be difficult for both of us, however I am truly grateful for the mutual trust and tolerance we have in each other. I pray that God will bless this relationship till eternity, and wash away the time of uncertainty. My dear melon, thanx for bearing my emotional whinge, I know sometimes I stepped beyond the line. Being independent is what I want, but I know sometimes I can’t help but to grumble my emotional expression to u. I want to achieve everything I dream of, slowly but nicely. I am giving myself a space to breathe now, since I think that I’d suffocated myself with not very-brilliant-perspective for a period of time. I always remind myself, never put myself down juz because i don’t get what i want. I can always try later, harder maybe. Yeah! Independent woman works towards her dream without stopping, not even a second! Go Go Sheryl!,dunno wut to do..i'm quite depressed lately, so i decide to do the survey thing again. thanx to atonq paul n nasoa for tagging me in facebook.=p
RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag as many friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6.
Have Fun!
7.
don't lie!
IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
burning up-jonas brother -----ces, ade ke ini reaksi aku?
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
7 things-miley cyrus ----hahaha..lebey kuranglah kot
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
disturbia-rihanna ----ha?
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
dangerous-akon feat.kardinal offishall ---dangerouslah sangat..hehehe
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
summertime-new kids on the block ---exactly wrong ok!
WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
closer-neyo ----??!!
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
in the ayer - flo.rida feat will.i.am
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
i'll be loving u -mariah carey ---yeeehaaa!
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
all i need -one republic ----whoa, almost there~
WHAT IS 2 + 2?
forever-chris brown ---ok2, im suck at maths~hehehe
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
silly lily-bunkface ------weyh, gile tidak benar.my fren all all clever lah.hahaha
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
baby one more time--britney spears ----a ah best ape jd baby balik..hahhaha
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
better in times-leona lewis ---aishhhh...
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
bleeding love-leona lewis -----apsal lak nk bleeding, happy lah..kan
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
bye bye-mariah carey ---yassin juga dibaca dalam majlis tahlil ku...=p
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
clumsy-fergie ---agak lah clumsy sket..tp bukan hobi r..=p
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
cobalah untuk setia-kris dayanti ----hahahahha
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
crush-david archuleta ----mane ade aku ade secret crush dowh~
WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
damaged-danity kane -----xnaklah damage~tipuuuuu!!!
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
disampingmu-the divine master ---luv u guys~
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
fall for u-2ndhand serenade ---ces, jiwang sungguh..hahaha
are you being honest?
yes i am..=p
happy birthday to me~
happy birthday to me~
happy birthday to me~
happy birthday to me~~~~
hahahaha..bestnye nyanyi birthday song untuk diri sendiri. well, today is not my birthday. few days ago was my birthday. gosh! i cant believe that i AM 21! thanx to my friends for all the sweet2 wishes and those lovely presents~i've got loads of bracelets, necklace, brooch, make up box n chocolates! yeah!! n special thanx to my beloved mum for sending me a beautiful bracelet watch n heart shaped ferrero-roche.mum, u just simply know that i really2 love chocolates! n to my melon, thanx for playing the guitar for me. i luv it. that's the best present ever. i love u! even though my birthday would always fall on the due date for all assignments, but still i enjoy my birthday. my melon promises me to celebrate my birthday along with our 4th anniversary n also with his birthday on sumwhere in may. due to the time constraint, since we both hardly have time to meet each other, so we have to wait for another semester break to celebrate all these meaningful event. it doesn't matter, as long as we spend the quality time together. whatever it is, thanx to all. i know that i am old already, i am entering the new phase in my life, which means that i have to stand on my own. no worries, after all, i believe age is juz a number. nevertheless, i am glad that i am now experiencing new life stage, which i hope that i could create as beautifully as i can. =p
my lovely present..thanx~
it's 2009! time flies so fast until we don't realize that 2008 is over. perhaps i may be a little late to wish everybody "happy new year".but still, i want to wish each of u to have a bright of 2009. so i'm thinking of new motivation for myself since everybody seems to have one.this is the list i intend to do on the brand new 2009 :
~ms. sherill nurfarhana will be 21 years old this year so i want to be more matured,
especially in my act n every decision i make (i know i'm a bit of childish! heee..
~less spending,more saving which means less shopping.boleh ke? we'll see.
okay2, let me put it this way. i can spend but it mustn't be too much
until my allowance run out before the time and i have to make thick faces begging
my parents forever for money...huhu. p/s:afif, u shud do this u know!
~make less kebaye, more baju kurung.hahahaha.it sounds weird right for sum1 to hv
this kind of aim, is it? tulah cik sheryl, byk sgt baju kebaye smpi bj kurung
pon xde. kan nk g praktikum da pening kene g beli baju kurung. xkan la nk g sekolah
mengajar pakai bj kebaye kan? huhu..
~eat less meat, eat more veggie n fruits! definitely i hv to since i'm so chubby
right now, like my man said "sayang, ur cheek is like a pau daging u know!"
~do more exercise, especially the sit up thinggy.i guess u know y. =p
~lg rajin study! last sem i missed 0.03 to dean, so for this sem i must
work harder! chaiyok2 sheryl!!
~xmao manje2 sgt lg dah.saye da besar, i will not cry over sumthing silly.
~slimmer by the end of this year! 49 kg is a bit too much for me.46 ok la kan? =p
i think that's all for now. karang banyak2 xbuat pening la plak.huhu.hopefully this year i can achieve more success n i can go through everything nicely~ have a good year everyone!
arini saye rase rindu sangat2 pade cik abg saye.al-maklumlah saye da lame xjumpe si dia. beginilah adat org berkasih long distance.saye rs saye ade mslh dengan menulis dlm bhs melayu.bkn kerane saye lupe diri,perasan mcm omputeh.hahahaha..tapi sbb da lame sgt xmenulis dlm bhs melayu.inilah akibatnye bile anda mengambil option english ye.hahahha.jd maafkan saye sekirenye tulisn saye ni kedgrn sumbang ataupon sangat2 formal ye.saye sedang mengasah kembali kebolehan utk menulis dlm bhs melayu.=p jd kembali kpd cerita saye td, si dia saye sbnrnye bljr di universiti yg xsame dgn sy.bknlah jauh sgt universiti si dia dan saye, tp memandangkan time n works constraint, kami memang jarang2 sgt berjumpe.boleh dikatakn, dlm setahun, cume ade sebulan je kitorg jumpe.wuhuhu.ape bole buat..da nasib badan..huhu.jadi arini, ntuk hilangkan rs rindu, sy pon bercadang nk surf internet untuk lekakn diri.tp sebelom tu, adik lelaki kesygn da merengek2 lapa, jd sy pon memasakla.sbb nk cepat, sy pon decide nk masak ayam goreng berempah, mushy soup n bwat kuah asam.tibe2 ms memasak tu, teringat lg dekat si dia.terus laju je tgn ni ambil ikan bilis dgn cili n goreng.pastu tumbuk dgn lesung batu yg berat tu.as tribute to my beloved hubby-to-be,saye pon telah menyediakan sambal ketuk.nyummy~si dia saye ni mmg suke sgt dgn sambal ketuk.jd bile buat je sambal ketuk, ia mengingatkn saye betape sweetnye die bile die memuji mskn saye iaitu tomyam dgn sambal ketuk yg die jamah dlm kete sewaktu die br pulang dr jb.berbunge2 hati saye ble si dia berkate begitu.wah2.saye mcm sgt teruje pulak bercerite itu dan ini.tp tgn ni da penat menulis.mungkin saye patut beli soft keyboard yg lebih selese.maklumlah,keyboard lappy sy ni aduhai keras sangat!hehhehehe.xmengapelah, asalkan saye dapat melakukan semue kerje dgn lappy ni pon sudah alhamdullillah.okaylah.saye rs bahase saye sudah semakin merapu.sy pon nk tgk drama di tv3 ni.tata~
my passion for perfumes becomes an addiction lately. i just bought 2 bottle of perfumes in last 2 days, n i think that i'm totally a perfume freak. seriously, i can't help myself seeing cute design og the perfume bottle, plus with the nice smell, i just couldn't resist it. let me share wit u some of the perfumes that i've already owned.
1-Paris Hilton by Paris Hilton
2-Les Belles de Ricci by Nina Ricci
3-Love At First Glow by JLo
4-Hypnose by Lancome
5-Miss Dior Cherie
6-Miracle Forever by Lancome
7-Issey Miyake by Issey Miyake
8-Fantasy by Britney Spears
9-etc, i can't remember da..ghee
i think my obsession towards perfumes is undeniably influenced by my best friend's habit who loves to provoke me with her new smell. yes! i have an idea. to all my friends, y dun u all give me a bottle of perfume each time for my birthday? so i can have more and more collection of perfumes..wuhuhuhu===
1. A is for age:
20
2. B is for beer of choice:
i don't drink of course!
3. C is for career right now:
tea-cher===stands for the person who makes tea for others..ghee
4. D is for your dog's name?
i hate dogs reaaaaally!
5. E is for essential item you use everyday
facial wash n toothbrush
6. F is for favorite TV show at the moment:
numb3rs and CSI..luv em both!
7. G is for favorite game:
currently, i'm addicted to supercow and the chocolatier..so cute!
8. H is for Home town:
senawang,seremban is where i belong
9. I is for instruments you play:
piano
10. J is for favorite juice:
kiwi juice! nyummmy!
11. K is for whose butt you'd like to kick:
currently, mr-excuse-me-u-annoy-me!
12. L is for last place you ate:
home..my mum's cook..shedap!
13. M is for marriage:
not yet..haven't found my prince====
14. N is for your full name:
s.h.e.r.i.l.l. n.u.r.f.a.r.h.a.n.a
15. O is for overnight hospital stays:
once===eeerrriee==
16. P is for people you were with today:
my naughty bros n loving parents =p
17. Q is for quote:
cintaku.pudar.
18. R is for Biggest Regret:
for knowing sum1 who neva knew how to appreciate my presence
19. S is for status:
single and adorably available====
20. T is for time you woke up today:
9:30..huhuhu
21. U is for underwear you have on now:
don't want to tell
22. V is for vegetable you love:
long beans n pumpkin!
23. W is for worst habit:
spend money foolishly===
24. X is for x-rays you've had:
thrice===yucks!
25. Y is for yummy food you ate today:
chicken soup with oyster n oso with sambal kicap!nyummy! thanx mama!
26. Z is for zodiac sign:
aquarius
let's do some quizzes!
1. Do you feel guilty if you cry in public?
nope==y do i have to?
2. Do you think crying is a sign of weakness?
definitely no! crying is part of human normal expression rite?
3. Do you think men and boys should be encouraged to hide their tears?
uhm..i'm not sure.maybe it depends on person
4. Do you feel embarrassed if you find yourself crying while watching a film or reading a book?
yesh..maluuu!
5. Would you try to hold back your tears if you were attending a funeral?
no..i really can't help it!
6. Would you distrust a politician who shed tears in public?
no!
7. Do you think that tears are an unnecessary expression of emotion?
no definitely!
8. Do you always try to hide your disappointment?
most of d time..i'm not into lettong everybody knows that i'm dissapointed
9. Do you get embarrassed if you see grown men crying?
no.
10. Would you pretend that you had something in your eyes if you were unexpectedly discovered crying?
depends.
11. Do you always try to hide your anger?
i don;t think so..=p
as a conclusion..i love crying~to me crying is a sign of normal behaviour==in other words--i'm a normal person who sometimes would cry to express my feelings!
holla~ it is already late but still i cannot close my eyes. so i decided to post something again..at least my brain is working on something good rather than juz mimpi of being one of those fairy tales princess..hehehhee~ today, my friend, nas told me that one of my ex-schoolmate had already tied a knot with sum1. and my reaction was - "what? settle down at the age of 20? r u kidding me?"..so i went to check for the person's fs, n i was very surprised to see loads of the loving couple getting married pictures. as a friend, i am happy n i'm praying for the best to both of em. however, i couldn't stop myself from thinking~ think a lots of things. so as usual, my curious friends n i wud chit-chatting bout it, n we discussed about several things that we doubted. we are not busy body type of people, but we just want to discuss it as one issue- is early marriage relevant these days? so we all (tqa,apep n i) discussed blablabla. the conclusion of informal yet byk mengarut punye forum was simple : it would be relevant if u are willing to sacrifice your time and energy. honestly, i will not choose to get married at a young age because of the big responsibility and commitment that i must give to the marriage itself. furthermore, i am still studying, n i have no job yet, so it means that i'm not financially stable yet. like it or not, marriage requires stable financial and commitment, as marriage involves 2 person sharing life and love. when u get married, u'll be expecting babies, n it means more commitment n more cost. so i couldn't imagine myself being a wife, a mother and a student at the same time. if i had already get a job, maybe the situation is different,as i am able to hire a maid to take care of my kids. what my friends n i were thinking was, what it would be like when u settle down jobless~ i must say that it would be very tough n i would salute to those who is able to proceed successfully. i myself couldn't handle the stress when it is exam mode, plus with the hectic academic schedule. so ternyatelah early marriage is not suitable for me as i'm not ready to divide myself to two= marriage + study.. early marriage,it may sounds great as we are able to live with the people we love, but it is just not the right time yet. i hope that i don't have to experience being "mabuk2" with big n contented tummy to lecture hall to study..hehehhehe. so abang..just wait k dear.i'll be yours when it is the time~..=p let me feel how is it to be an "anak dara teacher", drive my own car and buy anything i want with my own salary... hehehhee~ ameen~
*to my friend huzai n wife : congrats~ semoge cepat2 dpt baby~weee~
*and oso to nasoha n tqah : kite sbr ye dulu sayang, xlarilah aiman n fadhli korang..=p
